How do I say the words that hide in my head
It should be so simple but it isn't
What are words but sounds
And sounds are written as symbols
How could the utterance of sounds be bad
It is the fear of rejection
Which accompanies the sounds that is bad
The possible acceptance
Should outweigh the fears
Still it doesn't
I want
I seek
I avoid
This is the cycle which needs to be changed
Maybe you can help me find the words
That are hidden in my head
But you don't know they are there
So you can't help
Yet I hope
If you knew
If I knew
If we knew

February 18, 1993